Monday, May 31, 2004
been through lots and lots of thinking these few days... and i have conclusion i have got what i wanted and i will leave... i will mend the hole in the heart all bt myself and i am not going to cry for him anymore... and so not to think abt it but i am not going to forget tht he is the very first person i loved and and he was the one i love the deepest... okie! it's all behind me... i hope i wouldn't look back... had band todae... quite tiring... had drill until 4.30 when it was susposed to end at 3.30!! i was quite of worrying if i could mend the hole in my heart all by myself... hehe! changed my skin... nice?! oki... *goo-bye* remember if love someone u really have to say it out...tht person will never know u love him/her...(there an example here to show u if u never say what yr heart really wants...)
Friday, May 28, 2004
last day of sch todae! slacked in sch lor... den we clean the tables... very very happy to see the whole class cleaning the class together!haha... i think i for student councilor, tis is total scary! we are going to wear black shoes on the first day!! *faints* when to bishan to get A DAY AFTER TOMORROWit's really a good show...althought yesterday i was to get over him,i thought why not one more day... i didn't have any hope to see him again... when we were in the train i saw quite a number of catholics... quite excited but none was him... we went to see some bags and went up to buy the tickets... I WAS TOTALLY SHOCKED! i saw him...i didn't really see him cos i scared he look back at me... den i went the other side to hide and i stepped on melissa shoes and she was kinda scolding me... i think he was talking on the phone...very very very content! i have to give up on him now...*cries* somehow thought wat if i did tis: ran up to him and called his name... OR juz call out his name and ask him if he had remembered me... but it didn't happened and tis was wat i wish had happened: run up and give him a big hug... ask for his number and express my love for him...oki... tis is getting so dramatic...was kinda crying in the cinema and somehow the trip... haiz! came back bout 8 plus went to cwp and saw tis very cute guy from rss... hehe! went to bath and cry teribly...bYe~
Thursday, May 27, 2004
my auntie told me i had a dream and tis was wat happened:
celeste:wait! wait...
auntie:what? what! celeste what?!
celeste:no...i toking to myself
den she hit me and i slept...HAHA! my sis even say i always talk when i was sleeping...
haiz...i guess it would be the last time crying for him...he wouldn't even let me take a look at him for the last time! oki... i getting to the main point now... real surpise to get nominated as a student councilor... went for the interview and it was really tough! little did i expected i passed it... wasn't really happy about it... seems to be juz an normal day for me... its juz no odd, when ppl tell me bout it my reaction was juz a yes... really feel strange... felt proud for myself... and i realized all ex-northviewers pri r all councilor... hehe! partly the reason i felt proud for myself... hehe...I REALLY MISS NORTH VIEW PRIMARY SCHOOL so far i only went back once!i'm really sad here... tml going to clean up the class room... juz really hope the whole class bring the rug to school...haiz! tml going out to watch the day after tml...haha~ taking back report on sat...
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
had BAND todae... so graet the sce one choose instrument liao! had one junior... a girl from 1/1... quite a fast learner... b flat major scale,go up and down learnt liao... juz need more practice... to be perfect... den after band went to eat mac.*yummy* den went to look around...juz heard something bad... and reflected it... really juz feel like brusting out!haiz... got the new sr book... i have got tribes! looks like a great book but i really want chinese cinderella...*cries* i couldn't get it cos of some BITCH!! i really hate my slowness and indecisiveness... especially indecisiveness tht the no. 1 thing i hate about myself! i never regret in the decisions i make... although i am indecisive...bcos of tht it made me very very sad...haiz! goo-night... sweet dreams! going to watch my missing liao...remember to catch it too!
Monday, May 24, 2004
came back quite early todae.. cos mel when to buy the pencil i wanted...*cries* den i came back lo... ate honey stars and some biscuits...*yummy* really nice~ got back most of the result so great ... all passes! got two more subjects- art and chinese... playing sims...life's so great! re-bulid the house... so cool! there is an INDOOR swimming pool! how i wish i could live in tis type of house... haix... i am so sad again... heard some songs and cried it out...thought very carefully and really want to back out for student councilor... but i... I NO NOE LAR!! haiz... i really wish u were here!!! *i miss u* tied plaints...look CUTE!!er... oki... i going to wactch my tv liao...
Sunday, May 23, 2004
~from the bottom of my broken heart~from the bottom of my br
juz found the lyrics was very meaningful...=]really means something to me
britney spears-from the bottom of my broken heart
"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead,
emptiness behind
Where do I go?
And you didn't hear
all my joy through my tears
all my hopes through my fears
did you now?
Still I miss you somehow..
(CHORUS)
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love,
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love
I never knew love
'Till there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
"Baby," I said,
"Please stay. Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart
Through my dreams
Through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end
(CHORUS)
You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here now..
(CHORUS)
"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Saturday, May 22, 2004
wow... i missed the com. hehe... *muacks* abt one day never use... stayed at my grandma's house...tht really wasn't a good stay cos i juz kept muching...hehe... feel so great to be at home... it was so amazing tht when i recahed home the place was in a mess... den i told my maid tht "our family cannot don't have you..." haha!! the blanket wasn't fold yet(from morning)...the night there was not too bad...air-con through out the night,juz tht my throat was a little dry...wasn't tht bad after all...haha... den we took taxi home... i told the taxi driver to go by yishun but no noe y he go by another way...AIYO! den i also no noe where he going he like going a bigger round like tht... but at least i reached home... i think i gotta have my dinner liao YUMMY!... eating paus and noodles! bye...
Friday, May 21, 2004
+sometimes+sometimes+sometimes+sometimes+sometimes+sometime
a very very nice song and the lyrics is very nice...so i decided to post it there!i espcially like the chorus...
Britney Spears- Sometimes
You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't wanna stay
But everytime you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say
A'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
CHORUS
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
I don't wanna be so shy, uh-uh
Everytime that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that, you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
Ah 'cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me, you just have to know
CHORUS
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
All I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
Just hang around and you'll see
There's no where I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
All I really want is to hold you tight
Be with you day and night
Sometimes I run
times I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night(fade out)
juz came back from sch... later still need to go grandma's house... got back my results!! so far so good...passed all my sub so far!! hope i will pass all... GOT FIRST FOR SCIENCE*YEAH!* went to cwp juz now... went to hallmark and saw a very very nice pencil box! I LOVE IT! i think i'm going to get it... and saw the pink toad bag at mini toons! but it seems tht it gets dirty easily...don really think of getting it liao... haiz... so sian.. den went to mt zion... melissa c brought some cards... den i was looking around lor...den went to the watch shop... the fossil watch so nice!! but the price is EX...haiz... very nice!den went home lo... told my mum abt to great news... and she was happy for me..hehe~!haiz.. gotta go grandma house liao!
Friday, May 07, 2004
oh dear! haiz...i cried for him AGAIN! y? i also no noe... juz thought tht i have got over him and here i am crying! but tis time it was a little funny...i was crying in the bathroom...when i was bathing...haha! howW can i get over it?haiz... todae had geo and maths 2...maths 2 wasn't too bad.... but geo was diffcult...*die die* looking for new skin... haiz...not much good ones...so sian...feel like i'm so hopeless... haiz...juz to hope to pass all my subjects...monday is pe and history... history a bit no confidence... haiz...i also no noe wat to write liao... no mood!
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
mdm liew is leaving! todae is her last day! *cries* she gave us a goody bag... BYE,MDM LIEW!!haiZ...Exams aRe hERe! studying very hard for tht! no confidence for this mid-year! also no noe y...hope can do well for end-of-year...my maths is the worse...tml is chinese...*scared* haiz...my art also not done yet! and nxt thursday is the exam liao!! wow! it's getting so bored...got caught in the rain today too! if mum knows, she would have screamed at my cos she told me to bring umberlla to school in the morning and my immue system not very good...always fall sick one! hehehe...computer attacked by virus *saddis* microsoft office and jpg pic was affected ! hiaz... i think going to the doc. no noe how much will it cost! okie...goo-bye! going to study again!